I promised you that I’d always be honest with you, so you wanna know the truth? Truth is I still love you and I probably will love you for a very long time. I still check your facebook every now and then because I want to know how you’re doing, I want to know that everythings alright in your life; I care, and I won’t stop caring. Truth is I don’t feel whole without you. Truth is that as much as you’ve hurt me I can’t bare to hurt you back. Truth is that all the past mistakes, all the heartache, pain and bullshit we’ve been through doesn’t matter one bit, because one second with you makes me so happy that I forget that I’ve ever felt differently. Truth is I still don’t know where we went wrong. Truth is I don’t see what you see in her. Truth is you’ve dismantled me to pieces. Truth is that even though I tell people I’ve stopped “liking you”, everytime someone meantions your name, my head instantly turns towards them. Its like everytime I hear it I think of what we had, and all we could have had. Truth is I can’t just be your friend, because as much as you enjoy this concept, in reality it’s a bizarre form of torture and I’m just not willing to participate in it. Truth is I wanna move on and get over you and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore, so please dissapear for a little while? Truth is you owe me at least this after everything.
You won’t find one.
No seriously Gemma , I am surprised at half the shit you put up with. If I were you I wouldn’t have had the strength to hold back at cutting sick at him for half the shit he does/says eg. chick being 6 months pregnant , what a joke.